im not lonely... just lonely... a going to be loner...

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

watch the highlighted wordings.. it meant something...

trying...

sometimes when you try there will always be things that prevent it from happening. sometimes when you try too hard your effort might be in vain as it will surely failed. to try is to show courage and strength surpass most humans. because not everybody can try. to try is to need the push and pull that get someone really going to the max to achieve it. if that particular person try and preserver they will finally get what they want as they really deserve it, why? because they truly deserve it. and the blogger really admire those who try and preserver to get what they want. it is truly a kind of motivation to the blogger.

why do people try? to try is to make an effort that really put oneself ahead of the pack. to try is to achieve something desired. everybody try something in this world even as you people read this blog some one is trying something.

the blogger try a lot of things in life but frankly the blogger experience a lot of mishap and things that just get in the way preventing things from happening. take for example when studying for exams, that night itself the bloggers favorite TV programme is telecast. so, to choose sometimes is to decide ones future as these trying and choosing tinging can really be the reason for a change in a persons life. sometimes, the little things in life is the one that decide our fate.

so is to try a risk or just a paradox of life? the blogger thinks neither is right nor wrong as the blogger thinks that to try is to take the first step of changing to something better or good.

what is the limits of trying? the blogger thinks the limits of trying is the sky, meaning theres no limit. everything impossible is possible in life if we try. just look at the humble looking lights in our home and around the world. from an impossible invention to one of mens greatest marvel from the invention of the light bulb. from a out most impossible idea of lighting the world with lights to a common use now. who could predict the preserverence and the determination to try has create something so simple looking yet life changing. as Neil Armstrong says, this is one step for man and one big leap for mankind.

in conclusion... try... if you fail, try harder... if you still fail... think... then try even harder... to plan to try is like winning half of the battle then to try aimlessly... sometimes, even trying needs planning and preserverence... good luck trying...

she will be love...

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

i like the sentences of the white paragraph.. i can't explain exactly but i just like it a lot.. i dislike the red paragraph as i don't really like how it explains about the girl.. girls should be respected not used.. i just don like it.. its not me.. as a conclusion.. it is a lovely love song..

humans

the definition of human in the dictionary means imperfect. so is the word imperfect stuck to us. then is the most prefect model in the world imperfect also? are the world leaders imperfect too? then why is this world been divided by different race, social class, economy class and political believes? infinite life have died for these aimless causes. it is true that simple words can be the downfall of a nation or an uprising of a revolution.

even now after more than a decade world war 2 have left us humans still think that they are perfect. while their very name "human" is another word for imperfect. but this time its different. it is not about conflicts between countries or whatsoever. (seriously, i think only when there is no humans left in this world, then the constant fighting between countries will end.)( it seems that world war 3 will happen soon if the world leaders do not do something that uses the brain more than the ego and jealousness that they are born with.) it more about the affairs of the human feelings now. if humans are imperfect then why are we attracted to each other? does imperfect and imperfect combine become more imperfect or becomes perfect? i will leave the answers to the individual reading this blog. another question pop up in my mind right now. how do humans judge other humans? i mean imperfect judging the imperfect? what has this world gone to man... but i know that the word "intelligence", "knowledge" and "love" surpass all boundaries and these words are the reasons why we live prosperously and leisurely now. simple words can be so hard, but it can turn people's world upside down. don't understand my sentence? read between the lines...

advise to those taking exams...

2007 have been a complete life changing experience to me. this is the first year i have two class. this is the first year i am schooling in a polytechnic. this is the first year i have some sort taste the fruits of my o-levels. i have worked very hard for my o-levels and going to Republic Polytechnic itself have been one of the fruits of my hard work. i am sure tens of thousands of people that is in my age range also experience that. not all are that fortunate. but try harder you guys. maybe it is the technique of studying that is wrong. one advise from THE ROCK...

when studying, start with something simple because that simple topic or question could be the cause of your downfall in your war against TIME in the exam hall. trust me. been there, done that. but i manage to work out a plan to overcome the problem. especially for maths paper. sometimes simple problems can be tricky, the thing that will rob TIME away from us. always remember that TIME when you know how to wield it, it will be your best friend. but when TIME wield you, then say good bye to your future and results. be prepared to RETAIN... oh... how i hate that word.

one of the worst days in my life this year...

PRIDE..
EGOISM..
VANITY..
SELF IMPORTANCE..
BIG HEADED..
HIGH AND MIGHTY..
PROUD..
VAIN..
SUPERIOR..
CONCEITED..

leads to...

DISCOURAGE..
DEPRESS..
SADDEN..
DAMPEN..
DISAPPOINT..
DISHEARTEN..
HOPELESS..
DEJECTED..
VERY UNHAPPY..
SAD..
GLOOMY..
DOWNCAST..
CRESTFALLEN..
DEFLATED..
DISCONSOLATE..




hope next year everything will be better..
time to think about new year resolution..
and be discipline enough to stay with it until the next next year...

when you thought you had all the answers...

when men thought they know the world inside out. they are wrong. they don't even have been to the most bottom est of the ocean because men's technology is still limited. when men thought they knew the outer space, they are dead wrong again. until now even the description of the solar system is based on guessing and prediction. men have no real prove of any of their statement about the solar system.

for your information, we live with mysteries surrounding us. we look up to the space we saw mystery. we look down to the ocean we saw mystery of the ocean. the worst part of the mystery is that men do not even know themselves!!! men do not even know how exactly our body work. especially the men's heart and feelings. as the first queen Elizabeth of England said, "the hardest thing to govern is the heart." but the blogger is not focusing on love now because he knew that love is something way too divine and way too great to be explain. let experience tell the story. the blogger is focusing more on human devilish behavior and how human can be much more worst than an animal. thats why when people got injury like a leg injury or any form of injury that is not purposely or unintentionally being inflicted to them. sometimes it is not an accident. it is more of a punishment from god to them for the wrong things that they do. examples of the wrong things is to keep things from his own friend, like somethings that his friend really need to know but he kept it a secret for his own selfish reasons. he is a good friend in front of his friend but he talks behind his friend to other people. the blogger call this kind of people the best actors ever walk on earth. but the blogger know that god is great. god know who is the real good and bad people in this world. that is why when people see accidents happening to other people the blogger see that those people is actually being punish for their unseen crime. punishments doesn't only come physically, it also come as other forms like serious illnesses that someone have been experiencing just recently. when you have illnesses since born or during childhood it is not a punishment from god. it is something that is fated to the one being chosen. most call it a test from god. this test will make the chosen ones more stronger than those that have no sickness at all.

not all injury or sickness that happen to men is a form of punishment. sometimes it is a form of rest, development of the body and also the changing of the environment, meaning weather changes.

if you don't understand what i am talking about, it is because you act not to know anything and you are the ones being punish by god. if you do understand what i am talking about, repent and realize your mistakes before its too late. this advise is not merely for you guys out there reading this blog, it is for the one writing it too. may god have mercy for those "friendly" back stabbers.

comments on starting holiday in the middle of the week...

until now, i still cannot figure out our schools system. how did they manage to come up with having holidays on the middle of a weekday. i thought of finding a job but have no mood to find it now because it is still in the middle of the week, no the start of the week. it is like i have no mood whatsoever to do anything now. i already have a very bad day yesterday and now this. holiday in the middle of the week. everything i plan is being jam. i thought if the holidays starts next Monday i will start working because actually i already have a job vacancy waiting for me to start work. and now a few of my friends want the same job too. to my friends who want this job, just prepare your printed IC and printed first two page of your bankbook so that they can transfer your pay straight to your bank account. i already have this job since the start of the year. every time i want it, it is there for me. not bragging lah but it is the fact. it is nothing actually just a simple job with a below average pay. hahaha... ya... a below average pay.

my other friends from different polytechnics they will only start their holiday next week i think, according to them. but strange our polytechnic system is huh? it is not that i am not happy with the system as a whole but it is just this holiday date tinging that is very strange.

now i am stuck at home planning on what to do for next week. i have wasted the precious time now in my home. when i can do wonders outside i am now confine to staring at this lovely laptop typing out this blog listening to songs. its not that i hate my home, i love it. this is where i grew up and this where i do everything before going out facing the world and its challenges. it is just that i would prefer doing something now rather then staring aimlessly at my lovely laptop. by the way don't think i am a geek ah that i always say "lovely laptop". it is just that with this laptop as a medium i have found knowledge, friends, connecting me to the world and lots more other stuff. god is to be thanked for all this. the gift of knowledge has bring us humans closer to each other and more knowledge gain with the touch of a button. you guys may found me as a weirdo but i respect the things that has "given" and done good to me even though it is a laptop or a pencil. things that you guys take for granted i take it seriously and respectably as i know that even without a simple eraser, one day we will find ourselves in trouble in the exam hall. i speak through my own experience. not having a calculator for maths paper 2 would have been disastrous.

even in my uniform group days and in my martial days right now, i have been taught to be respectful and to not take simple things for granted as it would one day save our life. lets take for example, i forgot to bring my spectacle hooks for my foot drill training during my uniform group days lah. i must march without my whole spectacles with me just because i forgot to bring my spectacle hooks. and on that particular day, i march burly. making mistakes after mistakes. then i receive punishment after punishment the whole damn day just because i forgot to bring my spectacle hooks. can you guys imagine that?

back to the topic... i still am trying to think and figure out how to manipulate this school system for my own advantage.

time really fly... so fast we will be apart again... thank you friends...

well guys... looks like tomorrow (5 December 2006) will be the last day i will be seeing you guys this year... time past by so fast man... just when i thought of bonding with my semester one friends suddenly it ended... but luckily i manage to defeat the greatest CS player of my last semester's class... hahaha... you guys know who... i stole his title as the king of the king in CS and defeated him in a handicap match... beat him by 100 kills to 70 kills... man i train hard to beat this guy... his skills just surpass mine and one day i will fight him again and he will surely get his title back... it has been a month i think since i play CS... my skills has really go down the drain... now i focus more on my health and well being then all these things... hahaha... i still remember those days guys... then i still remember when Vincent was sexually harass by a few girls in our class and he take revenge by being childish and doing funny stuff... from the last semester i can conclude that i have brought some of my secondary schools attitude to RP... man how i hate that... it make me look like a immaturish basket... damn... but what is done is to be learned... things happen for a reason... maybe because of my nuisance attitude, i still have friends from the last semester... hahaha...


for this semester friends... i know that i am not as close to you guys as i am to my last semester friends... but you guys have been very good to me and very warmth towards me and i really appreciate that and thank you guys... i have made quite a few horny friends from this semester... never have i had some people watching porn during class man... and this is the first time i experienced this... hahaha... you guys are just damn funny man... horny funny... this semester friends even though i am not very close to you guys but the time spent with you guys really has changed me partially as a whole... i can see the difference from me last semester and me this semester... well i know that i cannot judge myself so i ask my THE BROTHERHOOD friends... they agree to my statement... hahaha... i apologize for not really showing myself to this semesters friends thats why i have come up with this blog so that i can express myself but my expression has gotten strong opposition by "some" people, thats why i have to change my writing style...

to my THE BROTHERHOOD friends... i think we should change it to THE FELLOWSHIP OF ISLAM... that sound nicer as we are all Muhammad's and we are all Muslims right??? hahaha... we can decide later... since this semester i have come up with the idea of this fellowship because to tell you guys the truth i know that i will not be as close to my this semesters friends then the last semester so i need some kind of friendship security in RP... thats why i have specially chosen the good attitude boys like you guys to be in the fellowship... i am sorry for not telling the truth in the very beginning but remember what i always say... EVERYTHING THAT I DO AND DECIDE HAVE ITS PURPOSE... just listen and execute it sincerely... why do i need the friendship security is that in case if i need help in my problem statement going out to eat or going gym with me or even participate CE activities with me to gain points... but don't misunderstood me my dear brothers... i am doing this not only for my own good, but for your own good too... just see our bonding and friendship now... its getting closer day by day... i can sense it my dear brothers... may this brotherhood last till NS at least or until all of us got girlfriend lah... hahaha... since we are all still singles i know there are some people saying that our group is a bunch of gays and stuff... remember my brothers of ISLAM... do not be deceive by the devil... it is the devil in human form that is trying to separate us... remember our islamic teachings and believe... how the devil try his best to separate the prophet from his sahabats... this is happening to us i think... hahaha...

finally to those who celebrate Christmas i sincerely wish you guys a merry Christmas and happy new year... to my Muslims friends i wish Selamat Hari Raya Korban... maybe in the holidays i will forget to update and write new post so may this conclude this years activity... hahaha... i will write a few more post as the evaluation and conclusion... may god bless us all...

the current local affairs...

hhmm... it has been such along time since i wrote or even talk about politics and the current world affairs... but this time i will not be biased as i know that some government organisation will surely track me down if i do that and i will be in RP anymore... i hate that... i will write more about the topics on stavation, proverty and the increasing AIDS patient in Singapore and more about social base topics then politics lah... as i say... i will change my style of writing my blog right??? so now i am changing it... hope you guys enjoy it and be involve in my discussion... thank you...

well... today i am going to talk about the increasing number of AIDS patiences in Singapore... hhmm... what do you guys think? why has it increase? is it because of the metropolitan state that we are in now? or is it because we have lost our culture and believes that we are living like the western countries? free unprotected sex baby!!! is it like that??? if you guys have read the newspapers lately, there are increasing number of Singaporeans having AIDS... what, in Singapore dont sell condoms any more ah? or is the price of condoms too expensive or is everyone here just to horny and no time to wear condoms when going to make love? WHAT THE HELL MAN... i thought being a educated bunch of people has made us more mature and more wise to think of the consequences of making love... maybe the next 10 years when i am travelling in a train, all the passenger have AIDS is it??? a new trend ah? have AIDS after sex... funny man you people... you guys see people doing it in the parks, toilets and even in multi storey carparks you guys also want to try out is it??? ya... i know we are teenagers and i am one to but we have our limits lah... where is our culture? our tradition? and where is our believes? i believe that all religions prohibit premarital sex right? ya... i know that each of us want to try to have sex because we see in the rated movies about the pleasures and fantasy of having sex right??? come on lah people... do you guys know why animals except for chimpanzees have AIDS??? isnt it obvious? they dont practise free sex... you guys want to know how to animals make love? i tell you... the females will only mate with the strongest male around and by this the females only mate if they want to have babies.. not for fun or fantasy like us humans... why do chimpanzees have AIDS is because they are like us... every where see female chimpanzees they mate with them... just like us humans, thats why i think we are related... HAHAHA... no offence...

now you guys may wonder how i found this information right? i tell you... read more books on animals then you will know... instead of thinking how to make love and the position of making love... ( man, thats disgusting) we should read more on books like this... if we were to know ourself better then read more about the animals, because we humans follow the animals for inventions such as the airplane and things lah. find out yourself... now i am asking you guys to follow the animals like the birds not to practise casual sex all around... only mental people practise frequent casual unprotected sex because they are sex maniacs and i pity those girls for giving up their future to this kind of men... love is blind huh???

THIS ADVISE IS FOR THOSE WHOM DO NOT BELIEVE IN GOD, to those who believe in GOD... then you know what will happen to you in the afterlife if you guys make this terrible SIN... repent before its too late... and to those you guys whom want to try out... i say, dont just stop there, make babies if you want to... i dont give a damn because it is not my life that i am ruining... it is your own life... peace out and think twice...

what has happen to my blog???

can anybody help me... my blog site seem to have some pop up problem... out of sudden strange pop ups appear from my blog site... i found out there are two pop ups... man i wish i can just sue those freaks who put the pop ups there...

some bodys gonna get a hurt really badly if my pop ups is not gone...

but... nvm... for your info i am deleting this blog soon and replacing it with another one which is much better and more pleasing to read... it will be more of everything but only less expressive.. so you guys wont get to see me realeasing my anger and unhappiness any more... i have limit myself to this state because i have surveyed my close friends for their insight on my blog site and i have decided to delete this blog soon and make another new one... a much better one... this new blog will be more informative and more like a report than a diary... well.. maybe some times it will be like a journal... i am now figuring out the name of my new blog site and stuff like that... by next year it will be ready... but if any one of you people have comment or anything to say just feel free to IM me or ask me...

a positive day...

hello world!!! or should i say... finally... The Rock has come back... to blog... sigh**

OK... this day is a very interesting day for me because i learn quite alot today... No... i did not learn math or science or even how to beat up my people... hahaha... well... not actually beating people up lah but more on the basics... let me tell you guys what happen... just relax, enjoy and pardon my english...

7.30am... i am suppose to meet up with my judo friends to go to the grading place... the grading place is actually at Bouna Vista... the place is very deep inside private properties and at that place, they are dosens of Ang Mohs (whitemen) in expensive cars and walking their dogs along the streets. there are only one bus connecting the judo federation and civilisation, bus 191... as i was saying, i was to meet up with my judo friends at this time but i was at in the MRT at that time... i overslept... my chair said that if i was 5 mins late, they would have left without me... hahaha... i want to take this opportunity to thank all my judo friends for the waiting and i apologise for the late coming... and thank you for the smiles that you guys give me even though i am late... hahaha... peace out guys...

8.30am... the test was suppose to start but the admin there is not up to standard... the place is very cosy and even though old, it is an honour for me to be there as i know that not much of these heritage buildings are left in Singapore... we waited for about half an hour because of some technical and human errors... we have to wait patiently but i thank god for letting me rub shoulders with a 9th dan black belt!!! can you guys just believe it!!! a 9th dan black belt!!! an old and wise man, very warmth and stern at the same time... he told us some stories and also teach us a lot of things... maybe for most of you guys that do not practise martial arts and know its ways you guys do not know the meaning of 9th dan black belt... right??? but nevermine... maybe in my next few blog i will explain more on it or maybe if you guys really want to know about the colors and the different stages of belts, then IM me and ask me... i will always be there... even if i put busy on my nick, just IM me because i will still find time to entertain you guys... hahaha... but when i put away*, out to lunch* and be right back*... i meant what i put...

10.30am... finished the grading and got one surprise from them... but i am not going to tell.. just wait for another three more month... hahaha... you guys will be surprise positively...

11.30am... on my way home...

4.30pm... i attend a wedding function my mother mother's side... meaning my grandmothers side... as some of you guys would have known... i am not a pure malay... i am a mix... if you want to know what kind of mix i am... IM me... ask me... and so when i got there i met my relatives some i know and a lot i do not know... for your information i have a huge.. and i mean a huge.. family members... do you guys have a great great grand mother??? no??? dont know??? i know i have and i just sat beside her just now to eat together... hahaha...

anyway i will write more blog later... chao...