im not lonely... just lonely... a going to be loner...

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

watch the highlighted wordings.. it meant something...

trying...

sometimes when you try there will always be things that prevent it from happening. sometimes when you try too hard your effort might be in vain as it will surely failed. to try is to show courage and strength surpass most humans. because not everybody can try. to try is to need the push and pull that get someone really going to the max to achieve it. if that particular person try and preserver they will finally get what they want as they really deserve it, why? because they truly deserve it. and the blogger really admire those who try and preserver to get what they want. it is truly a kind of motivation to the blogger.

why do people try? to try is to make an effort that really put oneself ahead of the pack. to try is to achieve something desired. everybody try something in this world even as you people read this blog some one is trying something.

the blogger try a lot of things in life but frankly the blogger experience a lot of mishap and things that just get in the way preventing things from happening. take for example when studying for exams, that night itself the bloggers favorite TV programme is telecast. so, to choose sometimes is to decide ones future as these trying and choosing tinging can really be the reason for a change in a persons life. sometimes, the little things in life is the one that decide our fate.

so is to try a risk or just a paradox of life? the blogger thinks neither is right nor wrong as the blogger thinks that to try is to take the first step of changing to something better or good.

what is the limits of trying? the blogger thinks the limits of trying is the sky, meaning theres no limit. everything impossible is possible in life if we try. just look at the humble looking lights in our home and around the world. from an impossible invention to one of mens greatest marvel from the invention of the light bulb. from a out most impossible idea of lighting the world with lights to a common use now. who could predict the preserverence and the determination to try has create something so simple looking yet life changing. as Neil Armstrong says, this is one step for man and one big leap for mankind.

in conclusion... try... if you fail, try harder... if you still fail... think... then try even harder... to plan to try is like winning half of the battle then to try aimlessly... sometimes, even trying needs planning and preserverence... good luck trying...

she will be love...

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

i like the sentences of the white paragraph.. i can't explain exactly but i just like it a lot.. i dislike the red paragraph as i don't really like how it explains about the girl.. girls should be respected not used.. i just don like it.. its not me.. as a conclusion.. it is a lovely love song..

humans

the definition of human in the dictionary means imperfect. so is the word imperfect stuck to us. then is the most prefect model in the world imperfect also? are the world leaders imperfect too? then why is this world been divided by different race, social class, economy class and political believes? infinite life have died for these aimless causes. it is true that simple words can be the downfall of a nation or an uprising of a revolution.

even now after more than a decade world war 2 have left us humans still think that they are perfect. while their very name "human" is another word for imperfect. but this time its different. it is not about conflicts between countries or whatsoever. (seriously, i think only when there is no humans left in this world, then the constant fighting between countries will end.)( it seems that world war 3 will happen soon if the world leaders do not do something that uses the brain more than the ego and jealousness that they are born with.) it more about the affairs of the human feelings now. if humans are imperfect then why are we attracted to each other? does imperfect and imperfect combine become more imperfect or becomes perfect? i will leave the answers to the individual reading this blog. another question pop up in my mind right now. how do humans judge other humans? i mean imperfect judging the imperfect? what has this world gone to man... but i know that the word "intelligence", "knowledge" and "love" surpass all boundaries and these words are the reasons why we live prosperously and leisurely now. simple words can be so hard, but it can turn people's world upside down. don't understand my sentence? read between the lines...

advise to those taking exams...

2007 have been a complete life changing experience to me. this is the first year i have two class. this is the first year i am schooling in a polytechnic. this is the first year i have some sort taste the fruits of my o-levels. i have worked very hard for my o-levels and going to Republic Polytechnic itself have been one of the fruits of my hard work. i am sure tens of thousands of people that is in my age range also experience that. not all are that fortunate. but try harder you guys. maybe it is the technique of studying that is wrong. one advise from THE ROCK...

when studying, start with something simple because that simple topic or question could be the cause of your downfall in your war against TIME in the exam hall. trust me. been there, done that. but i manage to work out a plan to overcome the problem. especially for maths paper. sometimes simple problems can be tricky, the thing that will rob TIME away from us. always remember that TIME when you know how to wield it, it will be your best friend. but when TIME wield you, then say good bye to your future and results. be prepared to RETAIN... oh... how i hate that word.

one of the worst days in my life this year...

PRIDE..
EGOISM..
VANITY..
SELF IMPORTANCE..
BIG HEADED..
HIGH AND MIGHTY..
PROUD..
VAIN..
SUPERIOR..
CONCEITED..

leads to...

DISCOURAGE..
DEPRESS..
SADDEN..
DAMPEN..
DISAPPOINT..
DISHEARTEN..
HOPELESS..
DEJECTED..
VERY UNHAPPY..
SAD..
GLOOMY..
DOWNCAST..
CRESTFALLEN..
DEFLATED..
DISCONSOLATE..




hope next year everything will be better..
time to think about new year resolution..
and be discipline enough to stay with it until the next next year...

when you thought you had all the answers...

when men thought they know the world inside out. they are wrong. they don't even have been to the most bottom est of the ocean because men's technology is still limited. when men thought they knew the outer space, they are dead wrong again. until now even the description of the solar system is based on guessing and prediction. men have no real prove of any of their statement about the solar system.

for your information, we live with mysteries surrounding us. we look up to the space we saw mystery. we look down to the ocean we saw mystery of the ocean. the worst part of the mystery is that men do not even know themselves!!! men do not even know how exactly our body work. especially the men's heart and feelings. as the first queen Elizabeth of England said, "the hardest thing to govern is the heart." but the blogger is not focusing on love now because he knew that love is something way too divine and way too great to be explain. let experience tell the story. the blogger is focusing more on human devilish behavior and how human can be much more worst than an animal. thats why when people got injury like a leg injury or any form of injury that is not purposely or unintentionally being inflicted to them. sometimes it is not an accident. it is more of a punishment from god to them for the wrong things that they do. examples of the wrong things is to keep things from his own friend, like somethings that his friend really need to know but he kept it a secret for his own selfish reasons. he is a good friend in front of his friend but he talks behind his friend to other people. the blogger call this kind of people the best actors ever walk on earth. but the blogger know that god is great. god know who is the real good and bad people in this world. that is why when people see accidents happening to other people the blogger see that those people is actually being punish for their unseen crime. punishments doesn't only come physically, it also come as other forms like serious illnesses that someone have been experiencing just recently. when you have illnesses since born or during childhood it is not a punishment from god. it is something that is fated to the one being chosen. most call it a test from god. this test will make the chosen ones more stronger than those that have no sickness at all.

not all injury or sickness that happen to men is a form of punishment. sometimes it is a form of rest, development of the body and also the changing of the environment, meaning weather changes.

if you don't understand what i am talking about, it is because you act not to know anything and you are the ones being punish by god. if you do understand what i am talking about, repent and realize your mistakes before its too late. this advise is not merely for you guys out there reading this blog, it is for the one writing it too. may god have mercy for those "friendly" back stabbers.

comments on starting holiday in the middle of the week...

until now, i still cannot figure out our schools system. how did they manage to come up with having holidays on the middle of a weekday. i thought of finding a job but have no mood to find it now because it is still in the middle of the week, no the start of the week. it is like i have no mood whatsoever to do anything now. i already have a very bad day yesterday and now this. holiday in the middle of the week. everything i plan is being jam. i thought if the holidays starts next Monday i will start working because actually i already have a job vacancy waiting for me to start work. and now a few of my friends want the same job too. to my friends who want this job, just prepare your printed IC and printed first two page of your bankbook so that they can transfer your pay straight to your bank account. i already have this job since the start of the year. every time i want it, it is there for me. not bragging lah but it is the fact. it is nothing actually just a simple job with a below average pay. hahaha... ya... a below average pay.

my other friends from different polytechnics they will only start their holiday next week i think, according to them. but strange our polytechnic system is huh? it is not that i am not happy with the system as a whole but it is just this holiday date tinging that is very strange.

now i am stuck at home planning on what to do for next week. i have wasted the precious time now in my home. when i can do wonders outside i am now confine to staring at this lovely laptop typing out this blog listening to songs. its not that i hate my home, i love it. this is where i grew up and this where i do everything before going out facing the world and its challenges. it is just that i would prefer doing something now rather then staring aimlessly at my lovely laptop. by the way don't think i am a geek ah that i always say "lovely laptop". it is just that with this laptop as a medium i have found knowledge, friends, connecting me to the world and lots more other stuff. god is to be thanked for all this. the gift of knowledge has bring us humans closer to each other and more knowledge gain with the touch of a button. you guys may found me as a weirdo but i respect the things that has "given" and done good to me even though it is a laptop or a pencil. things that you guys take for granted i take it seriously and respectably as i know that even without a simple eraser, one day we will find ourselves in trouble in the exam hall. i speak through my own experience. not having a calculator for maths paper 2 would have been disastrous.

even in my uniform group days and in my martial days right now, i have been taught to be respectful and to not take simple things for granted as it would one day save our life. lets take for example, i forgot to bring my spectacle hooks for my foot drill training during my uniform group days lah. i must march without my whole spectacles with me just because i forgot to bring my spectacle hooks. and on that particular day, i march burly. making mistakes after mistakes. then i receive punishment after punishment the whole damn day just because i forgot to bring my spectacle hooks. can you guys imagine that?

back to the topic... i still am trying to think and figure out how to manipulate this school system for my own advantage.